Reality has hit!!
Now that I only have one more week left, three days after today to be honest, the reality of what I am about to put myself through has hit me big time!!
I have received my pay for the last two weeks worth of work and there is less of it than I thought I should receive, and i am not sure if this pay includes all the pay out amounts that should be included.
It leaves me dramatically short and I don't know what to do. I have no job organised as yet but there is one hopefully in the pipe line, I do not have my Austudy organised as yet but will be going today to get that done, not to mention the fact that it may take a while for them to process it all and I may have to starve for a while. I don't think that I will be able to buy the books that I need for uni but will spend endless hours at the library or one of them to use the book all the time, and the list seems to go on and on.
I don't have enough money for my sisters 30th birthday present either and don't know what the hell to do.
Food - well what the hell was that!! It will not exist for me for a while and that is a daunting fact for someone who likes their food too much for their own good.
I was thinking to myself that i have done something stupid by getting into uni. I will not have money, will not have food and will be studying my arse off which will inturn mean that i will not have a life either.
This is not the way that it is suppose to be. I am suppose to have the money to survive for the first month at leaset and not struggle before I even start!!
This is crazy!!!
I just have to get everything organised with HECS and Austudy, then find a job.
I am trying to get a job with Woolworth's. If I can do that then I will be okay.
I don't care what I do as long as there is money involved!!
I will have to work harder than I ever have to survive but I know that i can do it and I will be strong enough to make it work. Hey, I have been through tougher shit than this before!!
I can do it!! There will just be a slight period of adjustment and I have to learn to say no a lot more...and miss out on a lot, but I will be okay!!!
: )
I have received my pay for the last two weeks worth of work and there is less of it than I thought I should receive, and i am not sure if this pay includes all the pay out amounts that should be included.
It leaves me dramatically short and I don't know what to do. I have no job organised as yet but there is one hopefully in the pipe line, I do not have my Austudy organised as yet but will be going today to get that done, not to mention the fact that it may take a while for them to process it all and I may have to starve for a while. I don't think that I will be able to buy the books that I need for uni but will spend endless hours at the library or one of them to use the book all the time, and the list seems to go on and on.
I don't have enough money for my sisters 30th birthday present either and don't know what the hell to do.
Food - well what the hell was that!! It will not exist for me for a while and that is a daunting fact for someone who likes their food too much for their own good.
I was thinking to myself that i have done something stupid by getting into uni. I will not have money, will not have food and will be studying my arse off which will inturn mean that i will not have a life either.
This is not the way that it is suppose to be. I am suppose to have the money to survive for the first month at leaset and not struggle before I even start!!
This is crazy!!!
I just have to get everything organised with HECS and Austudy, then find a job.
I am trying to get a job with Woolworth's. If I can do that then I will be okay.
I don't care what I do as long as there is money involved!!
I will have to work harder than I ever have to survive but I know that i can do it and I will be strong enough to make it work. Hey, I have been through tougher shit than this before!!
I can do it!! There will just be a slight period of adjustment and I have to learn to say no a lot more...and miss out on a lot, but I will be okay!!!
: )
posted by MULLY at Tuesday, February 15, 2005
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